That's really the best and only way I can describe my situation right now.
I'm really sorry that my activity on here has dwindled significantly, and that I haven't posted a major Gmod video up on my YouTube in quite some time. I've had to deal with a lot of conflicting emotions, as well as current events with my family. I'll condense the latter situation into a format that doesn't go into detail or give names; I'm basically being put into a position where I have no choice but to grit my teeth and bear it for the next few months. And no, it's nothing about getting a job or going back to college or any sort of thing like that, before anybody freaks out or gets ideas. But all of this has taken a toll on my sanity (what little of it is left) and my productivity as a whole, since almost everything I'm dealing with right now, I'm only greeting with anger. Not exactly something I like to do, given my condition.
I'm just putting this journal out just to let people know I'm still doing stuff, but it's coming out slower than usual; and also to just be honest with you guys because I hate to keep everything from you. The most I can share is this picture from a stagnant video series I'm working hard on making relevant again:
I'm probably going to go for a walk or something to try and clear my head.